HAPPY SEVEN MONTHS TO US MY BABYY!! MECCHA AISHITERU MOTTO AISHITERU!! I still cant believe that were already on our 7th month together. It feels so unreal how far weve come and how many things weve been through together. From the way we first started talking to all our random conversations and calls to our misunderstandings and the moments when things werent okay between us. Weve experienced so many things in these seven months and despite everything weve been through im still here loving you and choosing you every single day. Youre still the girl i want to spend my future with. Youre still the girl i want to travel the world with and the girl i want to marry someday. I still dream about having our own big and safe home together with our two little girls and building the life weve always talked about. I still imagine all those little moments with you baby ko and i hope that one day we wont have to settle for calls and messages anymore because ill finally be able to hold you in my arms and remind you how much i love you in person.

Baby i also want to use this day to sincerely apologize for everything ive done that has hurt you. Im sorry for the times my jealousy and insecurities got the best of me. Im sorry for the times i let my fears and overthinking affect the way i treated you. Im sorry for being harsh with my words and for the times i made you feel like you had to be careful with what you did or who you talked to just because you were scared that i might get upset. Im sorry for making you feel like you couldnt freely enjoy things that make you happy because of my own worries. You deserve to enjoy your life and experience things that make you happy while still feeling loved and supported by me. I know that loving you doesnt mean i should let my fears control you or make you feel like you have to prove yourself to me all the time. I should be someone who makes you feel safe and understood and not someone who makes you afraid of being honest with me. Im sorry for the times i kept things inside instead of communicating properly and for the times i let my tampo and emotions speak for me. Im sorry for the things i said that might have made you question yourself or your place in my life. Im sorry for the times i made you feel unloved or unimportant when youre actually one of the most important people in my life. Im sorry for the times i chose to play ml or got distracted when i should have given you more attention. Im sorry for falling asleep without properly saying goodnight and for being late when you deserved my time and attention especially on our special days (before baby i just remmebber them i wanna say sorry again). I know that saying sorry wont automatically erase the things that happened but i want you to know that i recognize the things i need to change. I dont want you to keep getting hurt by the same mistakes over and over again. I want to learn how to communicate better and be more patient with you. I want to control my jealousy instead of letting it affect our relationship. I want to show you through my actions that you can trust me with your feelings and that you dont have to be afraid to tell me whats on your mind. Im sorry for the times i made loving me feel difficult when all you wanted was to feel loved properly. You have tried to understand me even during the times when i wasnt easy to understand and i know you have feelings too. You get tired and hurt too baby and i never want to forget that just because im dealing with my own emotions. Your feelings matter just as much as mine do and i want to do better at making you feel heard and understood.

Baby ko i know weve had moments when we both felt tired and confused about us. I know there were times when you wondered if things between us were still going to work out and times when my actions made you scared of loving me. Im sorry for putting you in that position because the last thing i ever want is for you to feel alone in a relationship where youre supposed to feel loved. I know that we cant make everything perfect and i dont expect us to never argue or misunderstand each other again. What i want is for us to learn from those moments and become better at loving each other. I want us to be able to talk about things without being afraid of how the other person might react. I want you to feel comfortable telling me when something hurts you and i want to be mature enough to listen instead of immediately getting defensive or letting my emotions take over. I want to support you in the things youre passionate about and celebrate the opportunities that come your way. I want to be someone who encourages you to grow and experience life and not someone who makes you feel like you have to choose between your happiness and our relationship. I trust that you have your own choices to make and i want to keep learning how to handle my insecurities in a healthier way. I know that we both have things to work on but i believe that we can grow together as long as we keep being honest and willing to understand each other. Thank you for still trying with me baby. Thank you for the times youve explained your feelings to me even when you were already tired. Thank you for the love youve given me and for the moments when you still chose to understand me despite the things that hurt you. I dont ever want to take your patience and love for granted.

Even with the distance between us i still want to make you feel loved in every way i can. I know that sometimes our schedules dont match and sometimes we cant talk as much as we want to. Sometimes i get sleepy and sometimes life gets in the way but i dont want those things to become excuses for making you feel forgotten. I want to become more mindful of your time and your feelings because i know that even the smallest things can mean so much when were far away from each other. I want to make more memories with you even through a screen for now. I want more random calls and more late night conversations and more moments when we laugh at the most ridiculous things together. I want to hear about your day and the things that made you happy and the things that made you sad. I want to know whats going on in your mind and be someone you can come to when everything feels overwhelming. I want you to know that you dont always have to be strong around me and that you can tell me when youre tired too. You dont have to hide your feelings just to avoid an argument because i want to learn how to handle your honesty with love and understanding. I want us to keep choosing each other not because we never get hurt but because were willing to understand each other and work through the things that need to change. I want our relationship to be a place where we both feel safe enough to be ourselves.

And baby please never think that the things i want with you are just words i say when everything is okay between us. I know our future isnt something we can guarantee just by talking about it but i genuinely hope that i get to build that future with you. I want to see you achieve your dreams and become the person you want to be. I want to be there for your achievements and support you through your difficult days. I want us to look back at these younger versions of ourselves someday and smile because we kept learning and growing. I want to remember these seven months as the beginning of something we both took care of and worked hard for. I want to be able to tell our future children about how their parents started with messages and calls and how their dad was once a boy who couldnt wait to talk to their mom. I want to build a home with you where we can both feel peaceful and safe. I want to marry you someday and wake up beside you and finally experience all the ordinary little things that distance keeps us from having right now. I know those dreams are still far away and we still have so much growing to do but i hope we never lose the willingness to work toward them. For now ill keep doing my best to become a better partner for you and a better person for myself too. Not just because im afraid of losing you but because you deserve a love that is healthy and sincere and because i want to be proud of the way i love you.

Happy 7th monthsary again baby ko you for being part of my life and for giving me memories that ill always treasure. Thank you for the happiness youve brought me and for all the little things you do that make me fall in love with you even more. Im sorry for the moments when i failed to make you feel as loved as you truly are. Im sorry for the pain ive caused and for the times i let my own fears become your burden. I cant promise that ill never make mistakes again but i can promise that i want to keep learning and that i dont want to treat your forgiveness as permission to repeat the things that hurt you. I want to show you that my apologies mean something through the way i treat you from now on. I want to be more gentle with your heart and more careful with my words and more understanding of your feelings. You dont have to be perfect for me and i dont expect you to always know what to say or how to act. I just want us to keep being honest with each other and to keep giving each other the chance to grow. I love you more than you probably realize baby and even when i struggle to express it properly my feelings for you are real. Youre the girl i want to keep making memories with and the girl i still want beside me when we finally get to live out all those dreams weve talked about. No matter how many months pass i hope we never stop appreciating the little things that brought us together in the first place. I hope the next months bring us more happiness more understanding more patience and more reasons to be thankful that we found each other i love you so so much baby ko. I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS MECCHA AISHITERU MY LOVE MY PERSON MY BABY HAPPY SEVEN MONTHS TO US BABYYY!